Here's a little storytime. A bit unusual for me here in the forum but I would like to get my thoughts out.
If you look at my profile you can see that I should have over 200 pictures. I was so active in the forum and loved it. I love showing off my goodies and exchanging hot messages. I've also had more intensive contact with one or two of the people here.
Then I suddenly disappeared and deleted everything - why are some of you perhaps wondering? And why does she now come back so cryptically with a post with a few pictures and asks whether she should post again or not ... and then doesn't?
Quite simply: I'm taken.
I met a man last year and we got together. In the beginning we had good sex very regularly but it was rather vanilla but not bad. I once asked him what he thought about porn etc. and I got the answer "I think it's irresponsible when women deign to show everything online". So I felt obliged to give up xnxx and not tell him about it.
But the longer we're together, the more boring it gets in bed. We have sex regularly but it's usually over quickly - he cums but I don’t.
He likes to do it missionary most of the time even the light is off and the blanket over us.
As my name and my pictures show, I love my tits and love to show them just as much ad I do when men play with them or fuck them. He doesn't like that - most of the time he doesn't even bother to undress me completely. I feel like I'm just his fuckhole when he's up for it (and not in the dirty, hot context).
So I'm horny as hell and miss xnxx. But I feel bad hiding it from my boyfriend.... So sorry if my decision to come back is still a bit pending….
It’s just so difficult

 

Who cares what others think you do you add you want

 

I can almost hear Bill Murray saying "Sell it to readers digest"

 

It sounds like you need to let him know what your needs are. Communication is key. Men are dense sometimes and are more focused on our own needs.

 

Dont give up who you are to be with some one. Sex is important in a relationship if its not good for you now it will not be good for you in 5 years. Talk to him be honest and if it seems like its not going to work out pull the trigger dont waste your time being some one your not and never be afraid to be you.

 

If you're not back yet, who created this thread?

The answer may be in the 1st post. It's long, but I started reading it anyway, but then the subject changed and I got bored.

 

What’s the advice ask? What to do about ‘coming back’, or the shitty sex, or the bf in general, or …?

 

On to thy own self be true
Live a dog's attitude " If you can't eat it or fuck it than piss on it."
Oh wait that's exactly what you're doing, my bad.

 

your doomed to fail in the relationship, why not be honest with the guy and talk out the problems

 

If you can’t be honest, you should probably end it. My husband knows everything I do. Even if I know he won’t like it I tell him.

 

Oh, plus I can’t believe I actually read all that. Yay me!

 

Lights off n a blanket! This fella's got his head screwed on...have you seen the price of gas n electric?

 

I'm bad with advice. I only have two kinds. The first is usually 'drop a toaster in the bathtub'... the second is worse. Although after reading your issue... I'm considering dropping the toaster in my bathtub.

 

Can I borrow it when you’re done? I haven’t used mine in so long it would probably fail. How depressing would that be?

 

If you’re not happy and sexually satisfied, what draws you to him? If sex is that important, you need to tell him to step up or step out.

 

I think it was very nice and respectful of you to delete everything here and stop interacting or visiting this site to be in a relationship with him. So does he not like porn or admire women’s bodies? Nvmd, the more important question is…. Does he admire your body? Does he make you feel desired? Most all women wish to feel desirable and sexy. Spending time here, you were probably used to getting attention. I’m sure you received compliments and felt like guys were attracted to you. If he wants to keep you “in a box” so to speak. Then he should want to make you feel attractive and sexy. Not make you feel as if you’re just there for his pleasure.

If he paid attention and was attentive. Then I’m sure he’s realized that you are very in touch with your sexuality and have an active sex drive. It’s not fair that you feel you aren’t being noticed or seen by him. Also, not right that he doesn’t seem to want to at least try to be on your level sexually.

I can kind of see why you miss this place. I’m sure that you care about him. Which is why you’re having a hard time deciding on what you should do. You need to make that decision for yourself. Asking advice here is only going to make you feel even more confused and misunderstood. No one wants to feel those type feelings. This is your own real life situation. It doesn’t quite matter how others think you should behave or move.

 

It seems like you finally decided to come back . You most certainly came back in a big way